Monday, May 26, 2008
say that i've changed i dun care cos i think i really did too!
when i was much younger, i use to have that character that i love about myself.and i was wonder what if one day.someone hates that character of mine and ask me to change.will that be difficult?i thought it was.cos changing to someone whom u're not seems rather tricky.ahhhaha!but i didn't think about the part that ppl do change due to the surrounding.hahahahhaha.
i dun noe since when that character went missing.and being replace with something that seems soo strange all the time.ahaha!and from that time onwards,i keep changing.due to influence.too often to the extend that i can hardly understand whats going on!hahaha.
whatever it is, i dun really care.hahah!cos i'm just blogging about this due to some random feelings.ahhaha.didn't noe how to start.hahahaha
anyway theres many things passing my mind.hahaha.happy and not happy.hahaha
ppl that noe me will noe that i will ponder over those sad stuff and make myself sad.ahahahahhaha
but now.hahaha.i cant be bother with the nonsense alr.unless it really irritates me.ahhaah!i dun noe y too.mayb i really changed?or isit just that i cant be bothered about what ppl thinks anymore.and not i'm changing?.i dun get what i type also.so dun ask me.
but but but but but...i really have to say i'm not sad now.ahahah!
actually.i feel kind good now.mayb its due to the company of my ozzy.hahahaha!.
ohya.theres something worth being sad.and i'm also soo sadist.but i was kinda touched by the spirit of the sichuan ppl.i think they're very very very strong.if this kinda things happen on me.i dun think i will even react like how they did.i mean the helping others one.i think i will just wanna die too.hahaha.i'm serious.i was thinking of it when i was ironing my clothes.ya.i was also thinking one day what if loved ones leave me.how will i react?and i came to the conclusion mayb i dun even wanna live too.i noe ppl is gonna say life is vunerable and all this.but.i'm not someone with high hopes.not someone that wishes to be someone big.i wont move on my own i wont noe what to do on my own too.the only thing that made to so determine to study that least is my dream.imagining.but still its not strong enough to make to study much too.but without all those pushing and stuffs i think i'll stilll be at the same spot.so i guess.if one day.that really happen to me.i dun think i will noe how to cont on.and slowly i'll become damn useless.so whats the point of it.thats how i come to the point that i will die too.ahhahaha
anyway.thats just what i'm thinking only la.hahahahaha!
i'm having my study breaks soo.and i've some plans too.haahhaha!
i'll be at the zoo on 18th and 21st doing duty.so do come down to support!hahaha!its only 17bucks!!!worth it.especially to see my beautiful face.ahahahahaha!
i'll be there on the 7th too.but only there for training.ahahhahah.
thats all(x
& she rubbished at 1:19 am
Friday, May 02, 2008
i'm here sitting in front this laptop with almost the intention to break this laptop for a new one!now i think its kinda dumb to get a small laptop!my eyes are feeling so god damn tired just beacuse of this small screen.all the words seem so small!even this font i'm using now!omg!omg!omg!its pissing me off every moment!but its ex.so i shall not do something bad to it!hahahaha!after a search of 1hr and no researches or anything about my report i got the feeling that i'll submit a blank piece of paper!omg!this is worse than playing frisbee!hahahah!
speaking about frisbee i when for it ytd!hbahahahaha!not bad quite fun!but i came home with all the bruises and aches.hahaha but i like this sport!not bad not bad!although not good at it yet.but its really fun!i will perservere man!hahahahha!
theres many things i wanna say.but i'm just too tired to cont!and i cant sleep!this is the sucky part!omgomgomg!
i'm going back to my report now!bye!
& she rubbished at 12:39 am
